Completed three years in this industry..

YES. This month i will be completing three years in this industry.

I can still remember my first day in mindtree. I was completely clueless about the work that i am supposed to do in mindtree. I always used to wonder about the work that we need to do, to get such a nice pay ( Yes three years back I was in a illusion that Mindtree is giving me a nice package). Then in first week I figured it out that we have to do coding and I did not knew any computer languages. I just knew C in bits and pieces which i studied in my first Sem. Most of other people who joined mindtree with me were like experts in multiple languages. That's when I realized that I am neither fit for this industry, nor well prepared enough to work in a company. May be my mentor figured it out that i will never be able to learn anything other than C(Even after three years i know only one language - C ). So after two months of C training and some good C results I landed in Mindtree Bluetooth Research team.

First couple of months was horrible and I used to get some nice scolding. All my variable names will be like a,b,c...z and I used to have all magic numbers in my code. Then my PM asked me to stop coding. He wanted me to go through the code of some already implemented application for a week. Then i came to know that coding in a certain style is as important as making sure that there are no bugs. At that time i wanted to be a expert in bluetooth. But soon i realized that its a dying technology( And we were not able to market our BT IP as well..).

After getting a release from BT, I got a chance to work in USB driver. Project was to port whole USB from Linux to Nucleus RTOS ( I know thats illegal to port code from a open source, but we were doing that to build expertise in both USB and Nucleus RTOS). As soon as that project got over I knew it was time for a jump. By that time I was pretty comfortable with embedded systems and had worked with 3 processors and had knowledge of both bluetooth and USB. I had also designed and implemented bootloader for couple of boards in ARM.

Things I have gained in Mindtree :
1. Most ideal company to start off my career.
2. Mindtree is the company which gave a direction to my career and made me a embedded engineer. Thanks to my mentor who thought that i cannot do programming in any language, other than C.
3. Company culture is one of the best in industry and got a chance to learn more about industry.
4. Mindtree went public and gave me a chance to make some money as well.
5. Got a chance to learn two important technologies there, Blue tooth and USB.
6. Met some wonderful people in form of my mentors, colleagues and project managers.
7. Got to see some nice, good looking and cute girls everyday :)

Things i have lost in Mindtree:
1. Mindtree is like government company. People don't have that spark and commitment to excel.
2. I am a very complacent and lazy guy. Mindtree ideology made me more complacent and lazy.
3. Pay Sucks.

With time, I was becoming more and more complacent and desperate in mindtree. Then came to know that symphony is looking for a embedded guy who has some experience in USB and Bootloader. They selected me in just one round of interview. Two days after that some bank in USA went bankrupt, marking the beginning of recession and all companies including symphony stopped hiring.

In last eight months, i have learned more things in Symphony than what i have learned in two years in mindtree. Even though the project was small ( It was a bar code scanner that we see in all shopping malls), it was like working from scratch. Developing something from end to end. Starting from requirements, design and implementation. Best part of the project is that there were only three people to do this and it was mandatory for all three people to know and understand each and every module.

I feel kind of weird to call myself a software engineer, because i never implemented application that runs on a actual system (apart from some modifications in USB driver code in Windows). May be I can be called as a firmware engineer or semi hardware engineer. Most of the code that I have developed are running on small embedded devices.

Things I have gained from this industry in three years..

1. Satisfaction in work. I never thought much about my career. Its just that things came up and I accepted all of them. Today i am very glad with whatever i am doing. Life is like a running stream. Sometimes its better not to struggle much and just flow with the stream.

2. Financial stability. Not need to think much while spending. You always feel good when you know that there is some money in your pocket.

3. Five days a week. So lot of time to do things which i love the most. Like traveling, reading, eating and sleeping ( playing cricket some times..). Best part of my career is that i had never been to office on weekends.

The only bad thing about being a embedded engineer is that there is no on site opportunities. The best on site I might get in my career is either a week in korea for requirement gathering or a week in Singapore for customer demo. But anyhow on site is not in my priority list. So i can do without that.

Sad part is that In last three years i have lost lot of hair and gained lot of weight because of this industry.

Nitin

ಬಾ ಮಳೆಯೇ ಬಾ...ಬಿಡದೆ ಬಿರುಸಾಗಿ ಸುರಿ

It was raining that evening. It has not rained in Bangalore for few months now and we don't expect it to rain in month of April as well. But on that evening it was raining. I don't know, whenever i have a plan to meet you, it starts raining. Eventually spoiling all plans and preparations and making me to re plan whole stuff again dynamically. I think the rain god don't want to leave us alone. He just comes in whenever you are with me. Usually in movies when girl meets a boy, it happens that sun or moon will come out, flowers will bloom, wind will blow, nice music in background etc ( Only in recent kannada movies it rains as well.. like mungaru male..). But in my case definitely it rains. Not only it rains, it rains very heavily.

Its not that often I get a chance to meet you and spend some time with you. Most of the time i will come to know about your availability in Bangalore only a few hours before. Still i try my best to plan the whole evening on such a short notice. I make sure that i plan it such a way that, I show you all the beautiful things in and around and buy you a plate of Gobi Manchurian and Masala Puri. I am sure you will not get Gobi and chats in your place.

Whenever i see something beautiful or Whenever I eat something delicious, first thought that crosses my mind is, you should have been with me to see this beautiful thing or to eat this delicious stuff. So i just make a note in my mind to get you here, next time when you are in Bangalore. These small notes are getting piled up in my mind. So when are you coming here?

It was raining that evening. I just went through all the places in my mind to select the best and then plan the evening. Everything was on track till this rain started. Now i have to re plan few things. Don't Worry. It does not matter how bad it rains, I will take you to Malleshwaram and will buy you a plate of Gobi and Masala puri. After finishing our dinner plan, Rain got very worse. Looks like this rain god is very angry with me for disrespecting him by going ahead with my malleshwaram eating plan. By the time that evening got over, with me wishing Good night to you, we were both completely wet. I think now the Rain god is happy. That's the last time i saw you, with rain drops falling from your hair and face. That's the last time i wished you Good-Night.

After that it has not rained in Bangalore. Now the Monsoon is also getting over, But No signs of Rain. Every day I sit outside my balcony and hope that it will rain again, like that evening and we will meet. It seems Rain god is still laughing at me. Oh Rain God, You Cant kill my hope. I am sure it will rain one fine evening.

ಬಾ ಮಳೆಯೇ ಬಾ
ಅಷ್ಟು ಬಿರುಸಾಗಿ ಬಾರದಿರು , ನನ್ನ ನಲ್ಲೆ ಬರಲಾಗದಂತೆ
ಅವಳಿಲ್ಲಿ ಬಂದೊಡನೆ , ಬಿಡದೆ ಬಿರುಸಾಗಿ ಸುರಿ
ಹಿಂತಿರುಗಿ ಹೋಗದಂತೆ .. ಬಿಡದೆ ಬಿರಿಸಾಗಿ ಸುರಿ
ಬಾ ಮಳೆಯೇ ಬಾ

Few people started inquiring me about this blog. So let me make it clear, Its just a fiction inspired from those four lines of kannada song.

Nitin

Moments of life..

There is a scene in movie "Bluffmaster", where junior bachan comes to know that he is going to die. Baman tells him that he has very limited time. We have lived so many moments in our life time but when we look back there will be very few which we will never be able to forget. Baman asks AB to live those moments again. That scene really made me think about myself. How many moments are there in my life that i will never forget. Well so many things passed my mind in a second. Well Lets make a list then.

First time when i saw my nephew, Aditya. He was just couple of days old and was looking like a lump of flesh, completely red and used to sleep for 90% of day. Still he looked so cute. I was waiting next to his bed till he opens his eyes and sees his uncle. While waiting their i observed this thing. Sometimes suddenly he used to smile in his sleep and some other time he used to cry. My amma told me that as these kids have no other thing to do, so god gave them lot of sleep. In their sleep God tells them something good, so they will smile. I just gave a weird look at my mom and told that, " I really appreciate that imagination of god telling something good and making small kids smile in their sleep".






At last he woke up and i got a chance to hold him in my hands. I was wondering what can a child which is just two days old, can think in it's small tiny brain ( He has to think something as our brain never stops..). With no previous memory ( I am sure in 2 days not many memory cells would have been filled..) entering into a completely new world, just to find few weird creatures holding them and smiling at them and trying to communicate in some weird language. By the time that kid gets a chance to think, he has to sleep again ( God has given him a boon to sleep for 90% of day..). Life would have been so good, if i can also sleep for 90% of day and SMILE IN MY SLEEP ( I can easily sleep for 60% of a day..).

Got to GO. May be i will come here some other time and finish this blog.

Daatu and Indian secularism

First of all i want to let you know that "DAATU" is a popular Kannada book written by my favourite author Dr. S.L. Byrappa.

S.L.Byrappa is a very popular name in Kannada literature. He has written number of popular Kannada novels on a variety of subjects. He has got some great popularity and some nasty criticism for the subjects he has chosen recently. He is one author who writes for his own satisfaction and not for some government award or saahitya academy fellowship. No doubt, he has the biggest fan following in karnataka and even today thousands of kannadigas are eagerly waiting for his next novel.

First thing that strikes in Byrappa's Novel is his subject. Each novel will have a very special story which really makes the reader to think a lot. And then the amount of information he gives in his novel is just extraordinary. No wonder he takes at least 3-4 years to finish a novel. Before writing on any subject he gathers all information about that subject and makes a deep analysis. Byrappa is writing in Kannada for almost 50 years now and all his novels are very precious for Kannada literature.

My fav novel is definitely Parva. Parva is the story of Mahabharata told in a layman's language. There are no heroes and no villains. There are only a bunch of crooked kings fighting hard to get the kingdom. Krishna is not a god but just a intelligent and cunning king. So there will be no miracles. He gives a scientific explanation for all the so called miracles that comes in Mahabharata story. I have watched Mahabharata in TV and have read that many times. But this version gives a completely new perception about this mega epic of Indian history.

Now lets come to Daatu. First thing that we should know is Daatu is written in 1970's. It explains the social, political and economic conditions of that time. Subject of the story is inter caste marriage. A brahmin girl and a Gowda Boy decides to break the barriers of religion and plan to get married. They want to do this just because, they want to be a role model for society. They want to set an example to others to denounce so called caste system. So the story revolves around the impact of their decision on their families and their village. In end, they both realise that this Indian society is not ready to accept such a thing. They just hope that at least in future Indians will destroy caste system and inter caste marriages will happen.

I wonder how can Byrappa think of writing a novel on a sensitive subject like this in 1970's. Even today our society is against inter caste marriage. Though there are few inter caste marriages, most of them turned out to be as failures due to various reasons. Even today caste plays a very major role in marriages. My mom will never see my face again if i decide to marry a girl outside my community.

Now in my view, i am against intercaste marriages. You might be thinking that i am a hypocrite and communal. But its not like that. I have equal respect for all castes and religions. But its just that our society and our family is not ready yet.

Lets analyse the reasons behind failure of intercaste marriages..

Because of all the reservations and steps taken by government we can claim that we have removed caste factor from our public life. But each and every Indian is very well attached to his respective caste in his personal life. Each guy is a Indian when he walks out of the house, but as soon as he enters his house he will be either a Hindu, Muslim, brahmin, gowda, konkani or a reddy. All the rituals and habits that we have in our personal life is deeply routed with our caste. I will not have a problem to do business, have a meeting or go out for lunch with someone from other caste. But i will definitely have some problem in bringing him to my home or may be to stay with him.

So a girl will not have a problem in interacting with a boy from other caste. She will not feel awkward in interacting with him for hours or in going out with him. Even she might be comfortable in falling in love with him. But all problems will start when they get married and start to stay together. Because there is not much of a difference in their public life, but there is a huge difference in their rituals, habits, belief, perception about things, trust in god and vision about life. There will be no support from family either. So slowly with time it turns out to be a failure.

Its true that we have to live in a secular country. Here secular does not mean that we have to give up our rituals and castes. "SECULAR" just means that we should not consider caste factor when taking any decisions. I might be a Hindu in my personal life, but i will be a secular if i treat all religions equally. I am a secular if i respect all religions. I guess if every individual can understand this simple definition of secularism, then there will be no communal violence. There will be no need for operation bluestar, kandhamal, Bombay serial blasts in 93 and all this jihad.

Byrappa dreamt of a secular nation with this novel Daatu in 1970's. This dream is yet to be realised. I just hope that one day India will become a true secular nation, not by eradicating caste system but by learning to give respect to all religions. Live and Let Live is the only way we can survive..

Nitin

Ten must see places before you get married...

If you came to this blog expecting that i am going to write

about some must see erotic places that you have to visit before getting married, then sorry to disappoint you folks.

Actually name of this blog should have been "Ten must see places before you Die". But i changed it. Anyhow both sentences mean the same. Marriage is also like death. Death of freedom, individuality, more than anything Death of your independence to take your own decisions. I think i am moving away from topic. I thought of writing about good travel destinations and ended up giving reasons not to marry.

Before i start my list, few things i need to mention. Only places i have visited personally will be in this list as i don't want to add or remove some place on the basis of some review i read about that place in net. Second thing is I have not traveled above nasik( Nasik is a place in Maharashtra where according to ramayana, Mr. Lakshmana chopped off Surphanaka's Nose ) towards north, so all places will be from south India.

10. Sand Beach of Pondichery : There is nothing special or unique about this place. Its just a small island where we have to reach by a boat. Nice Beach ( I don't like east coach beaches though..) I have spent some good time here with some good people. That's Enough to get a Number 10 position for this island in Pondichery.

9. Agumbe Ghats : I had been to this place so many times. I used to go to sringeri from udupi every Friday in a Royal Enfield. Riding a Royal Enfield in 13 hair pin bends of Agumbe is an awesome experience. I had been to this place so many times and have seen this in all climatic conditions. Nothing can beat the beautiful view we will get in Agumbe in rainy days. Did i tell you that agumbe records the second highest rainfall in India. If you are a fan of shankar nag's Malgudi Days then you must also know that shankar nag shot the whole malgudi series in Agumbe. ( Additional information - Malgudi does not exist - R K Narayanan just combined his two favorite areas to get this name. Malleswaram and Basavanagudi).

8. Jaganmohana Aramane( Art Gallery) in Mysore: I had been here only couple of times even after staying in mysore for four years. Its an Art gallery and is mostly filled with all the weapons and music instruments which were used by Mysore Maharaja and British people. But there is something else which is very special. Paintings from Raja Raviverma. Raja Raviverma is a guy who gave new dimension to Indian painting. I read somewhere that Raviverma was the one who has given face to numerous god and goddess of Hindu religion through his paintings. Till the time of Raviverma Indians saw god only in statues. But He showed god to people by painting god on a canvas. I like two of his paintings very much. A painting where raja shantanu is asking satyawati, daughter of a fisherman to marry( This one is from Mahabharata). Raviverma was able to bring out the right expressions on face of shantanu, beautiful satyavati and her father. Other one is the most popular one. Lady holding a Deepa in her hand. I am eagerly waiting for this movie "Rang Rasiya" which is based on this great painter ( I accept there are other interesting things in Rang Rasiya as well..).

7. Green Route - This is the railway route from Sakleshpur to Subramanya in western ghats. There are numerous number of tunnels and bridges that we have to pass by. My initial memory of this place is when i was a kid and i used to wait for tunnels and bridges while traveling from mangalore to tumkur in train. Then they stopped Train in this route for gauge conversion in 1991. After that it became a trekking route. It is a 40km route, just walking next to railway tracks in middle of western ghats. You will have to pass through long tunnels ( Some are up to 800 m long) and very high bridges. Need to be very careful while crossing bridges (I have read about many people who died during trek in this route) A very different and challenging experience all together.

6. Brihadeshwara and Meenakshi temples of Tanjavur and Madurai - First thing that i can notice about these temples is that they are huge. There is no place for things which are small. Starting from the total area of temple to size of statues, everything is huge. But there is no fine carvings that we can see in belur. All statues are plain with very simple carvings. In Brihadeshwara ( Brihath + Eshwara = Huge God) we can also so see a big nandi ( Third biggest nandi in India.) Meenakshi temple is so big that you will get lost. You will enter temple from one side of town and come out from the other side of town and start searching for your vehicle. Then off course you have to take a bus to reach the entrance to get to your parked vehicle. One good thing about these temples are in a single temple complex you will get all gods and goddess statues. You can choose any of god and start worshiping. Tamils are the most spiritual people i have ever seen. Still they are ruled by DMK.( DMK policy is not to believe in any god)

6. Ajantha and Ellora: I had been here many years back. So I don't remember this place much. But still i can remember the series of dark caves and beautiful paintings inside that( these paintings are fading now.. so better visit before it is completely gone). Actually these caves were unknown to civilized world till some English officer found them behind bushes in middle of jungle. Beautiful statues of Buddha, paintings inside dark caves( they used colors made from plants) and some interesting construction in Elora are main attractions. People used to find treasure when they dig up this region (That means it was a very rich place in history). Definitely a Must see for people who like visiting historical places.

4. Belur and Halebidu: Two temples built in Hoysala regime of Vishnuvardhana ( There is a third one in somanathapura). It took them 103 years to build this temple. One of the finest piece of art is here. First half of the temple is devoted for god with most of the god statues in front. Rest of the temple is filled with ShilaBalikas. You must hire a guide to know the story behind each stone. Most of Shilabalikas are in very bad state ( All good shilabalikas are in London Museum for Art). But we must really appreciate those fine carvings ( Both sculptor and his model.. :)). My favorite in Belur is a big statue of Ugra Narasimha. They used to carve miniature statues before carving big ones. We can see all miniature statues as well. Definitely a Must see place.

3. Mulayangiri : I did not believe it when i heard that karnataka's highest peak MulayanaGiri has road till the top. It takes couple of hours of trek to reach Tadiyandamol( Highest point in Coorg). But here to reach top there is no trek. Just sit in a vehicle and have a ride. There is no match to the scenic beauty of MulayanaGiri. You have to just be there to experience it. Chickmaglur to tarikeri covering mulayangiri, babanudangiri, hebbe falls, kalahatti falls and Kemmangundi, will be a ride to remember. Even though distance is just 70km and road is pretty bad but scenic beauty we will get to see hear makes us to forget all other things. Definetly Number One in my list.

2. Beaches of Goa : If you are planning for a lousy holiday with lots of leisure, relaxation and less travel, then this is your holiday destination. Hiring a two wheeler and racing in roads of Goa is a must. This place is so different from rest of India. Speciality of this place is that you will feel like a alien here( i love that feeling..). When i say different i am not talking about culture, life style or the way they live, I speak of the difference in mindset of people. People here are so liberal. They welcome all cultures and appreciate them very well. Your nation or caste will not affect the way you live in here. That's the reason it draws such a huge amount of foreign tourists. Two wheeler ride in old roads of Goa which runs in between coconut fields, Relaxing in beaches and night ride in boat are must.

1. Rameshwaram : This is the place where rama started to build a bridge to lanka ( Actual place is dhanushkodi, couple of miles away from city ). There is a temple in place where rama did a pooja of linga and then there is sea. This is a small island completely filled with proofs of Rama's adventure (i am not sure how true are those..).

It was dark and i was standing on the sands of rameshwara with hundreads of others in early hours, to get first glimpse of rising sun. I was holding something which i will let go on that day( thats jus a ritual.. somethings we can never let go.. does not matter how hard you try). That was a very spiritual moment. Thousands of thoughts from past running in my mind. Felt like sitting there and start crying ( No one would have noticed that.. people were so busy there). It was one of very few moments in my life that made me go weak emotionally. Standing in front of ocean i realised i am so small. I am just a tiny piece of dust in front of this huge life. But as they say each guy is a hero in his own life.

I dont know whether hanuman really dropped a linga that he bought from shiva or rama really did a pooja here. But this is a very spiritual place. We can take bath in ocean and then have bath in some 30 odd wells. Then we have to proceed to see linga worshipped by rama and one more linga bought by hanuman from kailasa.We can also do some shopping of shankas and some decorative items made of sea shells.

So this is my list of must see places in south india. I just hope that you will visit all these places before you get married :) .

Time is all we have...

My first request is don't read this blog if you are busy. There is nothing special or important in this blog. So read it only when you are free.

I know all you people are very busy these days . If you are so busy that you are not able to be in touch with loved ones, then take five min off from your busy schedule and think about the way you are living. There is no point in living life if you are living without your loved ones.

Thought of telling you a story. You might have heard this many times, but don't make that as a excuse to skip this blog from reading.

Once a professor showed a box to his students and asked them to fill it with big stones. His students filled the box completely with big stones. After that professor asked his students, " Is this Box Full ?"

Students replied, " Yes, Its completely Full. There is no space left".

So professor got some small stones and put all small stones into that box. All Small stones made their way into box. So he filled the box with small and big stones. Now he asked Students " Is this Box Full ?"

Students replied, " Yes, Its completely Full. There is no space left".

Now he poured lot of sand into that box. Box was able to take in lot of sand.So he stuffed the box with sand completely. Sand filled all the space left by Small and big stones.

Now he asked Students " Is this Box Full ?"

Students replied, " Yes, Its completely Full. Definetly There is no more space left".

He took a cup of coffee and poured that into box. Box was able to take a cup of coffee inside.

Thats the end of the story. :)

You might be thinking What is so special about that story?

THis box is us and space inside that is the time we have in this life.

Big Stones are things for which we live. Things without which our life becomes vacant or baseless. So we spend our life because of these things. These things may be anything depending on individual priority. These things are parents, siblings, friends, passion for something, satisfaction from life, your dreams, a childhood friend, your spouse, Health, MBA, .etc . For me its My parents, My relatives, small bunch of friends, My health, More than anything satisfaction in life. I always prefer doing something in which i get satisfaction.

Small stones are those which helps us to keep big stones intact. These things are important but we can live without that, These things may be Job, Social status, Wealth, Social contacts, Acquaintances, Entertainment etc.

Sand is small things which has no value in our life. Like transportation, daily routines,

So its very important to put big stones into box first. If we fill the box with Small stones or Sand first, then we can't put Big Stones into box. Just means that it is very important to give time in life to things which are of high priority for us. We live our life for these things, If we lose any of these stones, then we are losing some thing very big.

Once you are sure you have given enough time for high priority tasks, then give time for small stones. If we lose any of these, we are losing something but we can do without that.

So after big and small stones comes the turn of giving time to sand. In fact in life we will always have time to do these things.

Oh I forgot to tell about that Cup of Coffee. It does not matter how much the box is full? there will be always space for a cup of coffee. Like that It does not matter how much busy you are? there will be always time to have cup of coffee with your loved ones.

Nitin

Actually I wrote this in a hurry. So a apology for all spelling and grammatical mistakes.

More than a year has passed since I wrote this and now I have realized that setting proper priorities in life does not mean everything is on track. It becomes very difficult to hold on to few things even If you give MAXIMUM Priority.

A page from My Dairy!!!

Everyone in their lives would have had Girl Friends, and me too had my share of Girl Friends few out of them were crushes. But, it didn't take much time for each of them to turn to crashes. None of my crushes took off, or probably they crashed even before they took off !! Today, when I look back, I cant manage but to have a laugh.

My first friend was Miss S. I know Her from my Childhood. She was my friend even before i knew what friendship means. As she was my neighbour and class mate we used to spend lot of time together. We share lot of sweet memories, infact we were so young that now we dont remember most of them. But our friendship in childhood was short lived. Her Father got a transfer,so we departed very early in our childhood. May be that was the time i realised meaning of a good friend.You always realise value of something when you lose it. She is one girl who is still there in my life and will be there forever as a good friend and a good guide.

After Miss. S I never had a girl close to me in my childhood days. I was always seen in a All Boy's group. though Girls were our Primary topic of discussion. Playing Cricket and comparing our class girl's with other section girls were our hobbies.Even after so much of discussion and arguements we were never able to figure out a Girl's behaviour. Even today after so many years No guy from that group have a Girl Friend including me. So still for that group girls are just a topic of discussion. So we are still a All Boy's Club.

After staying in City all my life, I was in a situation to do my 9th and SSLC in a Halli in North Karnataka. I was really depressed about this fact and got more depressed when i visited that place. I think People over there never heard of words like "Sanitation" and "Cleanliness". They had a very unique style of building houses. The place my family rented had 6 rooms all in a row like railway compartments. Third compartment was supposed to be Hall, Fourth Kitchen and last one Master Bed Room. On My first day in that halli i was lying in sixth compartment(Master Bed Room) when my mother asked me to accompany her for a temple visit. Usually I dont like visiting temples,But that day I did.

Inside temple i saw this beautiful girl in yellow reshme langa ( thats a traditional dress for teenage girls in karnataka ) playing with a child. Looks like she had a shower and her wet hair made her look more sexy. For My surprise she started singing some devotional songs and her singing was equally good. No need to mention that i became a regular visitor to temple. Even though my Mom was bit surprised about my temple visit, she never bothered to ask anything about that. I came to know about her name only when school started and we both were in same class, She was Miss. R. Suddenly that halli became a much nicer place to stay.

In School First thing i came to know about her was her name and second thing was that she has a Boy Friend in same school, one year senoir to us. I said " What the Heck". Are all good girls under sun already booked ? As that halli was a very small place and rumours spread very fast in small places. So i just prayed that this boy friend thing is just one more rumour. That place was very orthodox and Boy talking to girl is a very rare thing. But still i decided to give my best,We started off with smiling at each other. By the time we started saying "Hi", "Hello", Six monthe were over. At the end of first year we were having some small quick chats and were friends. One day this girl came to my house. I was very happy to see her in my place, at the same time was trying to imagine how big this news of Miss R visiting my place will be in school next day. I am sure everyone will be talking about me. But suddenly my thinking came to a halt when Miss R told me that this boy friend thing is not a rumour. She is really in Love with that senior lucky bastard. When Girl Says "NO", then just term that relationship as crush and move on.

Recently I attended her marriage with her boy friend. I thought that was the end of a chapter, but it turned out to be the begining of new chapter.

Lets not talk about my PU Days because those days i was so busy in studying that i forgot that i am a human being and human beings will have some basic needs. It was like i have locked myself in a room with pile of books inside. For two years there was no place for Girls in my brain because it was stuffed with physics. maths and chemistry. It ended soon and I was getting ready for new life, new friends in Engineering.

First Day in E and C prayed god to give atleast couple of good Items in my class. First period started and there was nothing interesting on girl's side. It always happens like this, God never listens to me. Heard couple of people telling that all good looking girls are in Comp Sci. I had a option of taking Comp Sci but I am such a big Idiot that I took EC. Now I have to spend four years roaming aroung Comp Sci department.

Next day there was a new admission in my class and the girl who joined was the most sexy girl of our college. I just sat there and started imagining of doing a electronics project with her. I just said to myself I Love " Electronics and Communication". But soon realised that there are thousands of people willing to do project with her. So did not wanted to add one more name to that list.

Couple of years into engineering there were few girls who became my friends but never felt like doing a electronice project with any of them :). In last year of enginnering suddenly a girl Miss T became very close to me through SMS. She was in my college for four years but never thought much about her because she had a boy friend and he was the bad boy of college. Messing up with him was the last thing i wanted to do. Inspite of her Boy Friend I became good friend of Miss T. We used to spend hours talking about each other and all the stuff which were completely irrelevant for both of us. She is a very ambitious girl and i knew no one can stop her from achieving her goals. As Expected She went abroad for higher studies. When it comes to true love i would prefer to take some suggestions from this girl cause she has some good experience in that.

By the end of enginnering i decided that i can never have a girl friend in my life because if you cant have a girl fried in engineering days then you will never have one. I was single and i was happy. I thanked God for keeping me single and happy. As I have already told you god never listens to my prayers. From No where This Girl made a entry into my life. Lets Call her Miss X. No her name won't start from letter X. Eventhough we human beings are doing algebra for years, but still X is unknown. Even though i know her for years still she is like a unknown X to me. She is the most beautiful yet complex creature created by god. Almost impossible to figure out what is running in her mind. Sometimes she makes me feel as though i am the guy she wants to be with forever. Next minute makes me realise that i dont have any value in her life.

If you ask me about this girl, I am confused. I dont know whether she is the one made for me. Only Time can answer this question. But i know if God has specifically created a girl for me, then she will be pretty much similar to Miss X. She is the one whose absence in my life makes me go mad. She is the one whose smile makes my life beautiful.

It is very difficult to tell what you feel towards a Girl is True Love or just a crush. You have to make a choice by instinct and only time will answer that question. I feel only around 5% of couples in this world are in true love. Rest Spend their lives making themselves believe that they are in true love. I dont want to fall into that majority group. So its better to take time instead of taking a wrong decision. I just hope that i will take a decision at some point of time and that will be right.

In any case I have N number of Aunts in my family to search a right match for me.
Mr. X
　
"I am MAD FOR HER but Why I am Not MADE for Her…???"