Everyone in their lives would have had Girl Friends, and me too had my share of Girl Friends few out of them were crushes. But, it didn't take much time for each of them to turn to crashes. None of my crushes took off, or probably they crashed even before they took off !! Today, when I look back, I cant manage but to have a laugh.
My first friend was Miss S. I know Her from my Childhood. She was my friend even before i knew what friendship means. As she was my neighbour and class mate we used to spend lot of time together. We share lot of sweet memories, infact we were so young that now we dont remember most of them. But our friendship in childhood was short lived. Her Father got a transfer,so we departed very early in our childhood. May be that was the time i realised meaning of a good friend.You always realise value of something when you lose it. She is one girl who is still there in my life and will be there forever as a good friend and a good guide.
After Miss. S I never had a girl close to me in my childhood days. I was always seen in a All Boy's group. though Girls were our Primary topic of discussion. Playing Cricket and comparing our class girl's with other section girls were our hobbies.Even after so much of discussion and arguements we were never able to figure out a Girl's behaviour. Even today after so many years No guy from that group have a Girl Friend including me. So still for that group girls are just a topic of discussion. So we are still a All Boy's Club.
After staying in City all my life, I was in a situation to do my 9th and SSLC in a Halli in North Karnataka. I was really depressed about this fact and got more depressed when i visited that place. I think People over there never heard of words like "Sanitation" and "Cleanliness". They had a very unique style of building houses. The place my family rented had 6 rooms all in a row like railway compartments. Third compartment was supposed to be Hall, Fourth Kitchen and last one Master Bed Room. On My first day in that halli i was lying in sixth compartment(Master Bed Room) when my mother asked me to accompany her for a temple visit. Usually I dont like visiting temples,But that day I did.
Inside temple i saw this beautiful girl in yellow reshme langa ( thats a traditional dress for teenage girls in karnataka ) playing with a child. Looks like she had a shower and her wet hair made her look more sexy. For My surprise she started singing some devotional songs and her singing was equally good. No need to mention that i became a regular visitor to temple. Even though my Mom was bit surprised about my temple visit, she never bothered to ask anything about that. I came to know about her name only when school started and we both were in same class, She was Miss. R. Suddenly that halli became a much nicer place to stay.
In School First thing i came to know about her was her name and second thing was that she has a Boy Friend in same school, one year senoir to us. I said " What the Heck". Are all good girls under sun already booked ? As that halli was a very small place and rumours spread very fast in small places. So i just prayed that this boy friend thing is just one more rumour. That place was very orthodox and Boy talking to girl is a very rare thing. But still i decided to give my best,We started off with smiling at each other. By the time we started saying "Hi", "Hello", Six monthe were over. At the end of first year we were having some small quick chats and were friends. One day this girl came to my house. I was very happy to see her in my place, at the same time was trying to imagine how big this news of Miss R visiting my place will be in school next day. I am sure everyone will be talking about me. But suddenly my thinking came to a halt when Miss R told me that this boy friend thing is not a rumour. She is really in Love with that senior lucky bastard. When Girl Says "NO", then just term that relationship as crush and move on.
Recently I attended her marriage with her boy friend. I thought that was the end of a chapter, but it turned out to be the begining of new chapter.
Lets not talk about my PU Days because those days i was so busy in studying that i forgot that i am a human being and human beings will have some basic needs. It was like i have locked myself in a room with pile of books inside. For two years there was no place for Girls in my brain because it was stuffed with physics. maths and chemistry. It ended soon and I was getting ready for new life, new friends in Engineering.
First Day in E and C prayed god to give atleast couple of good Items in my class. First period started and there was nothing interesting on girl's side. It always happens like this, God never listens to me. Heard couple of people telling that all good looking girls are in Comp Sci. I had a option of taking Comp Sci but I am such a big Idiot that I took EC. Now I have to spend four years roaming aroung Comp Sci department.
Next day there was a new admission in my class and the girl who joined was the most sexy girl of our college. I just sat there and started imagining of doing a electronics project with her. I just said to myself I Love " Electronics and Communication". But soon realised that there are thousands of people willing to do project with her. So did not wanted to add one more name to that list.
Couple of years into engineering there were few girls who became my friends but never felt like doing a electronice project with any of them :). In last year of enginnering suddenly a girl Miss T became very close to me through SMS. She was in my college for four years but never thought much about her because she had a boy friend and he was the bad boy of college. Messing up with him was the last thing i wanted to do. Inspite of her Boy Friend I became good friend of Miss T. We used to spend hours talking about each other and all the stuff which were completely irrelevant for both of us. She is a very ambitious girl and i knew no one can stop her from achieving her goals. As Expected She went abroad for higher studies. When it comes to true love i would prefer to take some suggestions from this girl cause she has some good experience in that.
By the end of enginnering i decided that i can never have a girl friend in my life because if you cant have a girl fried in engineering days then you will never have one. I was single and i was happy. I thanked God for keeping me single and happy. As I have already told you god never listens to my prayers. From No where This Girl made a entry into my life. Lets Call her Miss X. No her name won't start from letter X. Eventhough we human beings are doing algebra for years, but still X is unknown. Even though i know her for years still she is like a unknown X to me. She is the most beautiful yet complex creature created by god. Almost impossible to figure out what is running in her mind. Sometimes she makes me feel as though i am the guy she wants to be with forever. Next minute makes me realise that i dont have any value in her life.
If you ask me about this girl, I am confused. I dont know whether she is the one made for me. Only Time can answer this question. But i know if God has specifically created a girl for me, then she will be pretty much similar to Miss X. She is the one whose absence in my life makes me go mad. She is the one whose smile makes my life beautiful.
It is very difficult to tell what you feel towards a Girl is True Love or just a crush. You have to make a choice by instinct and only time will answer that question. I feel only around 5% of couples in this world are in true love. Rest Spend their lives making themselves believe that they are in true love. I dont want to fall into that majority group. So its better to take time instead of taking a wrong decision. I just hope that i will take a decision at some point of time and that will be right.
In any case I have N number of Aunts in my family to search a right match for me.
Mr. X
"I am MAD FOR HER but Why I am Not MADE for Her…???"
