Why Did You Change???

Let me make it very clear from beginning that this is not my letter. But i will be telling a lie to all you readers if i tell that this is completely fictional. As i have told you that my friends love to share their stories with me, so i know some real stories. This is one of them. People who are in my inner circle might be able to identify the characters. Go ahead guys give it a shot. This is the first time i am writing some other guy's story, so i just hope that i will do justice to his feelings and this letter. 

Dear Pavithra Bhat, 

I want to start this letter with a compliment to you. You are the most intelligent girl i have ever seen. The way you handled our relationship was awesome. I always thought you are dumb compared to me and i am the one who will be taking this relationship forward and controlling it. Now when i sit back and think about everything that has happened between us, all i can realize is that, my assumptions were wrong.. 

( Sorry for interruption dear readers, if you are trying to identify the characters with that name Pavithra Bhat, then i want to let you know that i am not a fool. Names have been changed. actually Pavithra Bhat is name of a 35 year old lady in mindtree. But i don't know why i choose that name out of the lot )

I am not sure whether, are all girls are intelligent like you and all boys are dumb like me. I don't know many girls so i don't know the first part, but i know many guys, so i know that all boys are dumb like me. You can take any relationship and a girl will be controlling it directly or indirectly.

I saw you for the first time 18 months back and i knew straight away that you will be someone in my inner circle. You are so good looking, but i was not impressed with your beauty but with your innocence and enthusiasm in life. I had a soft corner for you somewhere deep down my heart. I always used to care about you. I did all crazy stuff to solve all your problems and to see you happy. I have thought so many times, why i do all these stuff for you. But still today i am clueless. 

With time you became close to me. When i used to tell something you used to sit beside me and listen to all crazy stuff with your bright eyes full of curiosity. Those were the best days of my life. I have had so many wonderful moments in my life but there is no moment which can match moments i spent with you. Everything was so good. Everything was on track till your mom visited your two months back.

Still i don't know what happened in that couple of days. But i know one thing, that is you have changed a lot after that. I hate when people change. I felt like talking to a stranger when i used to interact with you. There was something which came between us. Still i don't know what is it?

You avoided me, started ignoring my mails and messages. It did not take much time for me to realize that you are ignoring me but took lot of time to accept it. I really don’t know what happened to you. It’s really difficult to accept the fact that someone in my inner circle needs me no more. But you used to tell that you are very busy and don’t get much time to respond. Let me tell you one thing, it’s very important to give time in any relationship. I have seen many relationships break just because they did not have time for each other. I tried my best to explain these things to you. But all my efforts went in vain. 

I don’t know how you got busy in your life; such that you don’t even have time to send me a single good night message. It takes just 10 seconds to type in a message and bring a smile in your friend’s face.I think you must have found something which is more important than me. Even now when I sit back and think about you, I can't digest the fact that you have changed. Just get a feeling like losing a very good friend, but worst part is even if I search, I am not going to get her because she has got transformed into a completely new person. 

There is nothing important to me than your happiness. Whenever I was in a dilemma to take some decision, I used to think which one makes you happier and just used to take that decision. Now you are making me feel that you are not happy to be in touch with me. So letting you go is the decision that I can take which makes you feel happy. I hope I was a good friend of your’s and I don’t expect anything from your end. If you are not comfortable to be in touch with me, then I don’t even expect you to be in touch with me. I don’t want to force myself on anyone including you. No one should feel bad just because I am present in their life. It’s a very tough decision for me to take and much more difficult to execute but I have to do this for your happiness. You have left me with no options. 

I have no idea how you are going to take this (Whether you will be happy that I am moving out or otherwise) thing. I just know one thing, if you want me in your life then you will come back to me otherwise we were never destined to be friends. Just remember one thing that any point of time if you are in need of a real friend then don’t hesitate to reach out to me. Have a good life. 

Your old friend, 
Vijay 

At the end of letter if you are feeling that this guy Vijay is some sort of emotionally weak, amateur guy, then that’s a failure on my part of describing his feelings. He is a very practical guy. All life he has taken sensible decisions on all matters except this issue. I don’t know what he did was right or wrong. You must be curious to know the girl’s reply. Even I am curious to know that. But he never told me that part of story. Actually he never told me the real name of that girl. 

I don’t know whether I will publish this one or not. I wrote this for self satisfaction of writing a good one. This one was a very unique one. The only reason for them to go different ways was communication gap and not finding time for each other. May be I will show this one to Vijay and if he gives permission then only I will publish this. So if you are reading this, then that means Vijay did not mind putting this letter on public forum. Is anyone able to identify this character Vijay??? I am not going to tell that. Let that character stay in our imagination than in reality. 


Nitin R Kidiyoor