Power to forget..

I thought of writing something about human memory. I think human memory plays a vital role in deciding someones happiness. I am Happy today because I have the power to forget bad things and remember only good things.But unfortunately this logic does not work all the time because some times we will not be able to forget few bad things even after trying N number of times. We just cant delete few bad memories that comes back again and again to haunt us. Sometimes I wonder what is the logic in the brain that decides to store something and to delete something else. Life would have been so beautiful if I had the power to decide on things that needs to be converted from short term memory to long term memory. This would have helped me in deleting all bad things and remember only good things. But deleting all bad things is not a good idea cause I need to know my mistakes to avoid repeating it.

My grandfather was gifted with a diseases in his old age. His brain has erased all long term memory data. So he was able to store all short term data but not long term. He was a very happy man because he did not had any bad memories but I don't think he had any good memories either. His mood was constant all the time unlike us ( Neither happy nor sad...).

I was told that few thousands of memory cells will be getting erased every day inside human brain and at any point of time we can use only 6-7 % of our total memory capacity. That's weird to have only 6% of memory usage. But trust me thats a boon given by god to our race. Atleast I think like that.

List of Dont Cares..

Once somewhere I read this theory about garbage trucks. It says around us we will find lot of people pissed off from their lives and they are like garbage trucks and they will be trying to find a place to dump their shit. So its better to be careful with those people and don't let them dump on u. I thought its So True.

Even in my case I have seen so many people who just look like big garbage trucks to me. I just run away when they come close to me cause I know they will not make my life any better. They get this weird pleasure by getting someone into trouble.

So now I have made a list of Don't Cares. List of people whom I really don't care does not matter whether he is my boss or some very close relative. I should say these people have put in lot of effort to get their names listed in that small list.

Most of the time I really don't understand their actions. When my life is like still water, they will just come and throw a stone. So all my time and intelligence will be spent in controlling those waves and getting things back to normal. I really don't understand that mentality of throwing stones and then enjoying it.

As an example, There is this guy who did something intentionally to upset my family in most important day of my life and thus killed all the fun of that most important day.

So I guess there is only one way out of this. Just remember this list and make sure to stay away from them. As away as I can... Hope this works... Hope no one has my name in their list.. ha ha ha ha ha ha ha................

Once in Life TIme..

As I sat in front of her in Koramangala MacDonald, I was speechless and had no idea about things to talk. I was not expected to perform better than this as it was my first time. In life when u reach a stage where you are not sure of things to speak, then its better to concentrate on other things. And there was MacVegie and French Fries attracting all my attention.

This is not the first time I am seeing her. Actually she is no stranger to me. I know her from my childhood days as she is a distant relative of mine. From last couple of week I have heard so many things about her from everyone in my family, that I could have easily claimed that I knew everything about her. Even though I have seen her from my childhood days, this meet was a very special one. This was something which was going to change course of my life. Here I was not expected to meet a distant relative but someone with whom I have already decided to spend next 50-60 years of my life.

Still Its bit difficult to digest that I am getting married even before my 26th birthday. One of my this year's resolution was that somehow I will convince my AMMA that I am not ready for marriage. But Now I have to accept that this resolution failed even before entering month of Feb and somehow my AMMA won by convincing me that I am ready for marriage. But two weeks after this defeat, Now I am very glad that My AMMA won this battle and I got a chance to meet this wonderful girl. Mom's are like that. They always know exactly what we need.

Now Its almost 2 months after that speechless meeting in MacDonald and I am getting a feeling that Life would have been so good if I could have met this girl bit early. I missed some one like her in my life from so many years. Life looks much complete now. Until and unless you meet someone special in life, you will never realize how badly you are missing that person in your life. Only when we meet this special person we will know that life can be much better and complete than what it was in past.

So slowly this marriage news broke out in friends and family circle. I should say this news spread in a linear way among friends and in a exponential way within family. So many people got curious because of my sudden marriage decision and ask this question all the time.

"Nitin, Is this a Love marriage or Arranged???"

I have only one answer for this, "Its Arranged cum DEEP LOVE".

Nitin

Amritha Says....

AMRITHA

Once in life time… !! Ahem ahem.. I must rephrase it as ‘first time in my life’ which became the last one.. J After a discussion within the families, I was told that he wants to meet me before taking any decision… I was dumbfounded.. I was not at all ready for marriage.. I was still thinking that there is still time.. And one day when I heard this .. I didn’t know how to respond… I too am newly experiencing all these.. My heart was saying, “Please give me some more time to think.. !”… It’s difficult to me either.. But somehow managed to gain confidence and agreed to meet.

Here comes the day.. The day we decided to meet… I had come to office and whole day was puzzled so as to what am I to begin speaking… As everyone say that if I start speaking I will have lots of things to say.. But, but, but, how to begin .. I was clueless… With all these feelings, finally I started from my office which is situated in Electronic City to Mc Donalds in Total Mall of Koramangala.. All the way I was only thinking of how to begin my conversation.. how how and how.. A big question mark… To divert my mind away from this I started listening to music..

Finally reached the place… The place where I am to meet and speak … Found him waiting for me.. Greeted each other and entered Mc Donalds.. To be frank, my hunger had died off.. J But still placed order and we started speaking.. It was dead silence around.. Both of us didn’t know how to start.. Then we started off with eating.. and my hatest cricket match was going on on TV.. So, he was comfortable watching the same.. It was me who was in a confusion.. L

Finally the time arose that we both shared our views, which was a good part… We spoke about our life, work, family, frenz… and did we speak something about C***H ….. ;) No.. Can’t tell that.. confidential…

But that was a memorable moment that took place in my life.. I have never told this even to him till date which I am jotting down here. My decision of getting married to Nitin was a perfect one… I have found a wonderful life partner!! Loving, Caring and adorable person indeed.J

Couple of songs....

From Last two weeks Just listening to these two songs all the time...

Teri Aankhon Ke Sivaa Duniyaa Men Rakkhaa Kyaa Hai
Ye Uthen Subah Chale, Ye Jhuken Shaam Dhale
Meraa Jinaa Meraa Maranaa Inhin Palakon Ke Tale

AND

ye chaand saa roshan cheharaa, julfon kaa rang sunaharaa ye zeel see neelee aankhe, koee raaj hain in mein gaharaa taareef karu kyaa us kee, jis ne tumhe banaayaa